I was up today before 0400. Sleep is a challenge. Since 1966, it always has been
When I sleep, my subconscious takes me to times and places I don’t want to revisit. That’s why I’m sitting here at 0519 writing this blog post when I should be trying to slumber for another hour or two.
I write in my thriller novels about violence and what it does to our minds and bodies. I do that every day for an hour or more. I do that to avoid thinking about 1966, the year I spent in Vietnam in combat. A Marine. A field radio operator.
When I’m awake, I seldom think about that time or talk about what happened over there.
Before I sighed and surrendered to escape the demons waiting to pounce if I attempted to sleep again, I left the bed, thinking about the vital and dangerous job I had driving a Jeep in Vietnam and one specific day after one of our gun companies had been seriously hit.
Serving as a 2531 Field Radio Operator with the 1st Marine Tank Battalion in 1966, meant I was likely driving an M151 MUTT configured as an MRC-83 or MRC-110 communication jeep, stripped down, no armor, for maximum speed and visibility without doors or a weapons mount. We often drove along muddy, unpaved roads with a high risk of landmines or ambushes. The space behind the two front seats was filled with a combat radio. One of our M48 Pattons had hit a one of those IEDs, powerful enough to lift an almost 51-ton tank into the air before it dropped back down, blowing off its tracks. They crew survived with broken ear drums.
The next day, I drove that jeep to Charlie Company’s forward operating base, racing down one of those muddy one lane roads through a jungle behind a tanker truck carying a full load of fuel for the gun company’s tanks. They needed a resupply because the fuel they’d had blew up the night before when their base was overrun, ending in Martines fighting hand to hand with knives in their skivvies in the rain and mud.
I drove the jeep. A staff sergeant sat in the other seat making himself as small as possible as bullets snapped past us through the open cab.
During Donald John Trump’s first year in the White House, I received an old fashioned, unsigned letter in the mail with no return address. The postage stamp revealed it had been mailed from Florida. I live in California.
It said, “We Know where you live?”
After Trump won the 2024 election, the same or another Trump loyalist MAGA member sent me an email or left a comment on one of my blogs warning me to “Leave the Country or Sleep!”
I don’t like to sleep.
I took an oath when I joined the US Marines to defend this country against the likes of Trump and MAGA. I’m not leaving. You may understand why if you read the one-star reviews for The Patriot Oath.


